Only those in healthcare, and work in the ED will realize the chaos, the jungle we work in.
Outsiders will think of us being barbaric in eating right after treating a gastrointestinal hemorrhage or a traumatic death.
Or joke to conceal our fears.
Or stay silent and step away and see 20 more patients without saying anything about something tragic.
We are expected to be heroic. To be superhuman while not voiding, or defecating or not eating or drinking. We need to look for our Wellness. No one else will.